外公 .

七年都过去了 , 外公 , 您好吗 ? 我很想您 . 您在天边过得怎么样 ? 住的好吗 , 吃得好吗 ? 不用担心外婆 , 她很好 . 我们大家都很想念您 .
再过四个月 , 就满七年了 . 还记得我那时候还小 , 不懂事 , 当你过世 , 睡在棺材里时 , 我一滴眼泪也没掉 . 还记得那时外婆打电话来新加坡 , 告诉我们您的消息时 , 妈妈是第一位哭的 , 我还一直在那儿嬉皮笑脸的问妈妈为何哭 , 现在回想起来 , 我才发觉我的行为有多幼稚 ...
外公 , 我真的很想你 , 当我还小时 , 父母在新加坡工作 , 很少来看我 . 所以我从小都是和你比较亲近 ... 您载我去兜风 , 偷偷的带我去买冰淇淋 , 负责接我上下课 . 后来 , 我到了新加坡念书 ，一开始的那几夜 , 我都在想你 , 哭着睡觉 .

可是 . 当我一上小学时 , 命运有些转变了 . 听说您得了一场大病 . 需要拐杖走路 .  还记得您的最后一晚是在我生日之前 . 我忘了日期 ... 外婆告诉我说 , 您当天和往常有大不同 . 您饭吃很多 , 又很慢 . 冲凉又很慢 . 还告诉我外婆说 : 今天帮我冲干净点 , 也特别晚才回房睡觉 .. 接近午夜时 , 您就走了...

隔天 , 我们一家就赶回去 , 每个人的眼睛都哭得又红又肿 . 除了我 .
对不起 , 之前小时候给您贴了不少的麻烦 ,
您又没机会看着我们一个个的成长

外公 , 我好想念您哦 .

23rd april , twenty thirteen .

on the twenty third of april , it's our turn to showcase and shine on the stage of SCH's . we did , our we did not . it's like a dream , unbelievable feelings , unsung scenes . after numerous practices , we're ready . i bet most of them were , but , i don't think i'm . being in co since primary two , this is the first time that i'm worried , excited .. during the past syfs , i don't really give a damn to the achievements . we got silver 3 years consecutively , and i don't feel anything .

we made our way there , worrying , humming the tune , camwhoring too . it seems to be more of a happy thing . when we're outside the hall , waiting , cold sweat runs down , all the unusual things are happening . " CO NUMBER 37 , YUYING SECONDARY SCHOOL , CONDUCTOR , MS DINGXIAOYAN " the moment of glory that the whole orchestra has . according to the ex students , they all said that our chance of getting a distinction is high .. well , maybe . after the performance , i'm like so proud of everybody . LOL . hoping that it's a distinction

counted down to thursday , the 25th . my classmates checked the results , me and joel were stunned , shocked , doesn't know how to react . at the verge of breaking down , but , lessons are still ongoing . last period was physics , there's a test , but , my phone is distracting me . ended up didn't do the test well . i'm like holding my tears . ava room's atmosphere is like , 与往前很不一样 . it's totally different from what i'm expecting ... okay , i cried la . (my first time crying in sch) . so emotional . whenever i think of it , my tears are about to overflow .

but , still , thanks to those seniors who wrote encouraging words . two years later , a better result will be produced , i sumpa .
to all the sec 4s/5s , i'll miss you .

xx hoho

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Hello hello yo yo sup sup peopalll ! okay , crazy enough .
Wow , saw the title ? it's already day 92 , April 2nd . wooooo-wow ! sho damn fast !
This shows a couple of things , my sec four seniors are going to step down from cca , prefect , etc . sighpai , i'll miss them . and and , Mid year exams are coming . well , my school have just distributed the exam timetable . likea a fast . ):
Time flies so fast , while i'm still thinking that it's still the start of the year yesterday , apparently , i woke up from my pretty dream , it's April now . no longer living in the past .
Okay , basically , i've a few things to speak on . Remembering last year , my sec three seniors always tell me how stress they're being an upper sec student for the first time , how busy they are , how stress , how many hws , blah blah . and now , when i'm like telling how many stuffs i have , how busy i am , they basically say "haiya , sec three nothing one , sec four then stress kay" DA FUCK . HARLO , WAKE UP , EITHER YOU OLD OR WHAT FUCK . STM OR SEMO SAI . ISN'T THIS WHAT YOU'VE BEEN COMPLAINING ABT LAST YEAR ? THEN NOW I COMPLAIN CANNOT LAH . SERIOUSLY , NOT TO MENTION THE NAME HERE , HELLO , I FUCKING HATE YOU . OKAY , MAYBE THE FIRST PERSON I REALLY HATE . WOAH , BU ZHI DAO SEMO ATTITUDE . OKAY , THIS IS JUST A VERY VERY VERY SMALL PORTION . THERE'S MUCH MORE IF I'M LISTING IT OUT . WAY TOO MUCH .

Alright , omg , this is more like a complain and singlishy post instead of a proper one .
SYF is coming , in 21 days , and the principal said that co will be closing down if syf was not well done . tbh , i think i'll tear . but i don't want ppl see me cry . sigh . i really find that the principal is looking down on us .. what's this . haiya , nth to say uh , exams coming too .. have to manage time well .
p/s : apologies for vulgarities

Shall make another update real soon !
check it out soon .
x

Being strong

Hello readers ,
After a week or more , i finally found a day to blog . As you all knows , March holidays have already started , perhaps , it's ending soon , real soon . There's too many complains , so i decided to NOT COMPLAIN (:
-TAKE NOTEE ; THIS WILL BE A ULTRA LONG POST-

There's a couple thing i want to touch on on this particular post . bc i'm too lazy to separate them into different posts .
>Firstly , ILJ 
for your information , ILJ stands for Integrated Learning Journey . 13th and 14th of March . Which is last week . For my batch's sec 3s , we went to two different places . They are CHC(chinese heritage centre) which is located in NUS and Changi Airport Terminal 3 ..
Day one , CHC
UPCOMING PICTURES !

-With junheng-

-The cute cute dragon !-

*MY EYES ISN'T THAT SMALL): IT'S THE SUN*

-With Angela-

-De Laoshi:>

Hi , angela againn

With Shannonnnn

Cyril:B

Hello Joel aka ah gong

THIS IS MY NEW BOYBOY. (it's a girl)

Adriana !

Selca of the day

LEWINNN

Sorry mdm see >:)

Shimin. -no offence , you looked creepy

i have no idea what's this

•

Before i go into day two's , There's co rehearsal after this . FULL DRESS REHEARSAL 

sigh la sigh . it's super stress , although i'm not the one sitting outside , mingchong is . but our teacher requested us to turn our chair and face the audience oh no . HELLO , I HAVE STAGE FRIGHT ONE YOU KNOW . haha , we changed into our costume , and moved the instruments to the ground floor . *SCHOOL , Y U NO LIFT !?*  so heavy ! and i'm wearing heels . okay , it's not even 5cm of heels . BUT MY FEET IS ACHING ! haha , the standard clique didn't board the normal big bus , we board the smaller one , we had rubbish section on our way to SCH . haha okay ah .enough of crabs , hear comes the pictures .

With le wife , Gracia

RACHEL !

Le wife , Dilys 

Rachel agn (:

After the whole thing , we came back . Had dinner with Chuhua , Ginette , Mingchong , GuoShan , Phoebe and Joey at yoshinoya . Awesome co bonding . it's more likea bagua session ! we left at about 9pm WOW .

•

ILJ day two - Terminal 3 .

It's all about math . Cool huh ! kinda enjoyed myself . but i swear , it's like damn tough ): don't care . fun is more important . PICTURESS ! 

With Waiyan and gracia !

Shannon

Haiyu

Mr Wonggggggg , my long lost father 

My grp five ! Junyu , Jungheng , Me, Haiyu

Sorry Junyu :x

with Ms Lio !

Opps , sorry mr wong

Hi Junheng !

Thats all for day two . had fun more than learning . :x 

•

Had shabu sushi at nex after that with jin nee , brandon , cindy , junheng

This is super cute lah .sial.

MET SZB ! .

sorry , i'm too lazy to rotate it.

•

Recently , there's this ask,fm thingy . not bad luh , i'm no longer that bored . But but , some questions really creeps me out ;x . HELLO . i'm friendly , ask.fm/hohohowei 

HAHAHA , me and mc's twitcon are the same , had fun confusing ppl and annoying ppl . yay we are awesome liddat . LOL , oh yah . speaking abt this , there's a cpl qns that i received asking if me and mc are tgt . HAHAHAHA srsly . we are close friends ! that's why boy/girl bestfriends exist ! LMAO ROFL .

met up with Szb today . went raffles city shopping all . urg . too many branded shops in there . ): 

•

Sighpai , March holidays are ending in three days time . wow . time flies i swear . i've been reporting school for the past three days . ): WHERE GOT HOLIDAY LORH . 

And and , My CA1 results sucks . 

Failed my amath like mad . 27 marks . so it's a U grade . 

Have to buck up alot alot ! 

P/S: OPPS , THIS POST IS NOT RELATED TO THE TITLE

Love ya , 

cheersx

regrets .

Hey viewers . my apologies for not blogging for such a long time . i was busy with studies and cca . yep . both mye and syf is around the corner . hectic time . have been staying back for cca since weeks ago , mon, tues, wed, fri, sat. wow amazing right ? it's super tiring . just weeks more to endure , and TADA . 

for studies , i've failed two common test papers . pathetic much , yes . got a single digit for amath and failed by half mark for social studies . everything have not been doing well recently , i don't know why too . Frankly speaking , it's the first time that English was one of my favourite lesson . Mrs Khan / Ms Nisha was such an awesome teacher . although she only taught me for three months , she's like already one of the best teacher under my list . She don't know me well either . Sigh , she've left for maternity leave . she'll be blessed . i miss her so much . after she left last week , another trainee teacher took over the whole class with mrs goh . it's no longer split class :( . after they took over , english had literally became one of the lesson that i hate the most . Those two teacher attitudes much . i suspect that they're mother and daughter the previous life . attitude same , size same , face same . hating them so much . they've caused our class so much trouble . LOL . is they don't have the ability to get our class's attention , so blamed us for being noisy . wtf is this . I really miss Mrs Khan so much . she tell jokes . and speak in a unique way that will not let us fall asleep . :'( 

Next , Mrs Angeline Tan . she left for operation too . Sigh . why all the good teacher leaves uh . SIGH . i feel bad . she's such a good teacher , yet my class treats her so bad . we even made her angry . sigh . her teaching quite good . in replacement of her  , Mr fauzi and ms tan took over . Mr Fauzi's teaching was alright , just that i fell asleep easily in his class . on the other hand , Ms tan was fucking bad . LOL as in her teaching , whatever shit . she SIMPLY READ OUT FROM OUR TEXTBOOK . wtf . her voice is ultra soft . wtf . and she's like damn lazy and irresponsible . we called her to zoom in . bc we're sitting at the back , she is like simply 'move to the front' DAHELL . 

I HATE THEM SO MUCH . 

And , full dress rehearsal at conference hall tmr . AH . goodluck howei .

BOOM ! BYE

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Hello, as March have alr arrived.. which basically means, two months have passed.
Shits happened.. well it'll only be a short post this time round.

I found my main twitter too public, and everyone judges what I tweeted.. I decided to create a sub account. It's like finally, I can tweet whatever I feel like there, without being judged too much . Follow my sub acc @blackheartedx_ !

And i failed my amath common test.
Cheertears

As time goes by , we move on .

I am back blogging after a super long time. Common test week had ended. Did pretty badly for all my subjects. Sigh, well, what's done is done.

Once bitten, twice shy. I'll promise myself to put in triple effort in amath. It's really not an easy subject. I don't understand.. not clever enough to understand maybe.. or fated to fail that subject super badly.

Syf is around the corner, and the whole orchestra is like Still very cmi. Sigh, how to go for competition like that. Hah another conductor came to conduct tdy. She's like tons better than dxy. We should replace dxy with her. She even praised my section !♥ haha.

And, we ended. At least we ended it in a good way. Satisfied my craving tdy! abtm2! it's like so touching and funny! Ismail damn cute! lobang ip man sergeant ong too *-* heheh can't stop laughing!

Well, that's all maybe? Peace.
Black hearted, cold blooded.